The title of this blog is a favorite quote from Gretchen Rueben's book, The Happiness Project. I admit, I do catch myself wishing away some days, some seasons of life, hoping for better things. The years pass quickly and when I look back I realize those WERE the better things. In an effort to capture those better things I begin this blog. The details of my life are many things: mundane, quirky, sad, joyful, and hopefully, at times, entertaining. About three years ago my life was pretty much an open book when I blogged about our family's struggle with leukemia. When that was over I closed the book. I now open it again----well, at least a few chapters

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

All I Want for Christmas Is.......

Today some of my students asked me what I wanted for Christmas. It kind of took me aback. I don't really think about that kind of stuff too often. Of course the kid's lists have been on my mind, but I took a minute to think about what I really do want for Christmas. Here's the list:

I really want.............

Kids who are kind to each other.

Kids who clean up their messes.

Someone to tell me what to do about a tough career decision that I have to make in a few weeks.

Some time for me.

Health and happiness for my kids.

For one of my good friends to have a baby.

For my "big plan" to move ahead smoothly.

For my grade seven classes to suddenly jump 10 notches on the maturity scale.

For my good friend who is facing her first holiday season alone to have gentle Christmas.

To go somewhere warm soon.

And chocolate of course!

Tell me what's on your list.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thank Goodness For Daughters

I was talking with someone the other day about how scary it is to be raising daughters in this day and age. There are so many ways they can go wrong. I see it everyday at school. It is true, daughters can be a lot more difficult than sons in many ways, but there are also many extraordinary things about daughters as well.

Case in point, Tuesday. I had a an unusually long and exhausting day. I felt as if I had the weight of the world on my shoulders. I felt so unequal to the tasks given me. The constant commitments and being out of the house every night for the last few was taking its toll on me and the kids. The day ended with a long visiting teaching appointment--the kind that lasts more than an hour. I straggled in when I should have been tucking my kids in. I knew when I walked through the door I would be met with the disaster of the last few days. To add to the stress, I knew I had at least two hours of cleaning ahead of me that I had to get done, due to something that was happening the next day. Shocked and astounded, I entered in to a spotlessly clean house. Everything was picked up and in order, the kitchen was clean, supper had been made and cleaned up, and laundry was sorted and started. The love note left on my pillow was the final touch. I couldn't help it. I burst into tears. It was what I needed right then more than anything in the whole world, and it was all because of my sweet daughter. She is only 10 but has skills that many 16 years olds don't. How could I be so lucky to be blessed with such a remarkable individual? The boys couldn't fathom what I was so emotional about. Boys just don't get that kind of stuff. It wouldn't even OCCUR to them to do something like that.

I remember thinking when we were contemplating starting our family that I could definitely be an all boy mom. I didn't think I needed a girl. I couldn't have been more wrong. Surviving my life without her would be impossible. God has taken some important things away, but He has sure given me some amazing things in return. Thank goodness for daughters!!!!

Saturday, November 5, 2011

The Great Escape


About a month ago I had a lapse in judgement. At the time I thought, how bad could it really be? Well, I sure found out the answer to THAT question. It all started when my oldest started making his birthday wish  list. It was surprisingly short. At the top of the list circled and starred was the word GERBIL. This word has since been cursed many times in my household, with me being the primary cursor. My first instinct was, NO WAY am I having a little rat like rodent thing in my house. But then came the ammo of reasoning fired right at my heart and mind. "But, mom...........I don't want an ipod, a game system, a toy, just this, that is it". How could I defend that? Most kids his age are glued to a screen, phone, system, ipod, or even worse a dirt bike or gun. It seemed pretty harmless. I caved.

Everything was going really well, UNTIL last night. I had been gone several hours. I walked through the door and to my ultimate horror, I hear Coop yell, "NOSY IS GONE MOM! ( Nosy is the name of one of them. The other is Meep) I came in and saw the gaping hole in the cage that should have been secured wire. I admit it; I completely lost it. I was screaming and yelling, Marin joined me and the boys began running around in panic stricken terror.  Where could we even look? That critter had been on the loose for hours. I knew I would never sleep with the knowledge that there was the potential for that THING to be nibbling on my toes in the night. I immediately called my dad and asked if he had a mouse trap. This overheard conversation was met with shrieks and violent sobs by the boys. I could have cared less at the moment. All empathy was gone. If the only way we could locate this thing was to snap off its little head in a trap, so be it.

My hatred for rodents and pumped up adrenaline was immediately extinguished when Reg said, "Mom, I think we should say a prayer." I felt quite humiliated by that statement. Here I was resorting to violence and his first thought was to request divine intervention. He said the prayer; simple and to the point. After he finished, I had the immediate thought to search the living room. It wasn't 5 minutes until they spotted him under the couch. Marin and I blocked off the room and let the boys worry about how to capture Nosy.

After many failed attempts and a lot of disgusting skittering around, Coop piped up and said, "Mom, we said a prayer to find him, but not one to catch him." Good point. So Coop led us in prayer to move the rescue mission forward. Another miracle shortly followed when the perpetrator emerged and hopped right into his cage. Who knew that a faith promoting experience would involve a gerbil?

It was still hard to sleep. That critter kept finding its way into my dreams. I think I checked the cage about 50 times today to see if the door was shut. I ended the experience by uttering the threat that they would never own another pet as long as they lived if it escaped again. They promised vigilance. I'm sure we will laugh about it in a few years, but I'm not quite ready to do that yet.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Random Thought Blurbs

I don't really have anything great to post about so I'm just going to spew out some random things that I want to say but don't have anyone to say them to.

*  Mini chocolate bars magically make self-control EVAPORATE!

* I love the ladies I'm doing P90X with. The 5:30 alarm......not so much.

*  I need a big change. Not sure what.

*  I hate bureaucracy, red tape, and jumping through hoops just to get something done.

*  I want to be able to do something UNINTERRUPTED for just 15 min.

*  I am suddenly addicted to smoothies. I have been having one every day for a long time. I am even   sneaking lettuce and spinach in there and my kids have no idea. Ha!

*  I haven't had a good hair day in a really long time.

* I love being able to see my kid every day in my class.

*  I need some motivation to enter another race. It has been a long time. I wish I wasn't so competitive about it and that I could just do it for fun.

*I think I should have been diagnosed with ADD as a kid.

*I'm so grateful for the sunrise I saw this morning. BEAUTIFUL!

* The travel bug is starting to nibble away at me again. I need to plan something.

* I wish some people didn't have to carry such heavy burdens. It is hard to know how to help sometimes.

That is all..............................for now.